Yesterday I read an amazing blog written by Dr. Licciardi, a fertility specialist at NYU. I didn’t just read one post. I read the whole. Damn. Blog. All 5 years of it. It is appropriately titled: Infertility Blog. I implore anyone who has a good few hours to sink their teeth into any and every single thing they’ve ever wanted to know about fertility treatments, plans of action, and understanding your treatment in a no frills very straightforward manner to click on this blog, start at the first blog entries from 2006, and read until the present. Take notes on cases he’s treated. He blogs about 2-3 times a month, so the reading is manageable. The insight you will get is invaluable.
He writes quite a bit about PCOS, and reading what he says about it has put me in a much better mind set from a few days ago. In the same sentence as PCOS, he dropped the F-Bomb: Fertile. It’s a dirty word in our circles, but yes…he did use it. He emphasized that women with PCOS are actually highly fertile. Sing it, cysters. Fertile. A man who has treated thousands and thousands of women over 20 years just called me fertile?? OMFGLOLROTFLTTYLKIT!!!!
Look, I’m not ready to get off my soapbox about how fucked up and painful this disorder is, nor have I become numb to how scary it is to wonder if I will ever have a baby–BUT–to think that maybe I have a little bit of the ole Michelle Dugger in me yet might not be a bad thing. I have been feeling pretty down in the dumps about not ovulating.
The fact is, so many of us PCOS-ers make eggs, and lots of them! In fact, our body has so many eggs it wants to make that many of us are at risk for hyperstimulation when we do take meds to ovulate (Licciardi also goes into this quite extensively as well). PCOS is really about the hormonal imbalances in our body that are preventing all of our delightful eggs to ripen and release in a timely manner. Don’t hate the playa, hate the game! And speaking of “hating the game”, I hate that part of PCOS that his given me elevated testosterone levels which is causing chin hair. I’ve plucked 15 hairs this week, and counting. I will regale you with the final chin hair count on Sunday.
Over the next month or two, I will still be attempting to ovulate on my own without the help of meds, and experimenting with various supplements, clay baths, massage, and crazy crunchy techniques that might get me there. If they don’t, it’s straight to the meds for me! My ovum are crossed until then.