I’ve lost track of how long it’s been since I’ve had my period, but I’m estimating I’m on CD80ish right now. Too long. SCFFF is on a bender, and I’ve got to reel her in. Time to come home, hussie! Mama misses you in a really sick, sad way that has me blubbering to Hubs about “just wanting my period alreadyyyyyyy.” It’s not a happy place.
Hubs and I came up with a plan yesterday on what exactly we’re going to do moving forward since it’s pretty clear I’m not ovulating.
Step 1: Get my vagino to my gyno. I will get Provera and command SCFFF return home immediately to my tampon.I’m sick of asking her nicely.
Step 2: Test my hormones/bloodwork on CD3
Step 3: Once armed with that knowledge, I will take these results to the Chinese Herbalist/accupuncturist in January of 2012. I want to give the natural remedy a shot for 2-3 months before moving onto…
Step 4: Clomid. Maybe Clomid and Metformin? I don’t know…I’m very nervous for this step in the plan because it feels like the great unknown. Hubs will also get his boys checked before I go on Clomid. Don’t want to force my body to pop out a ton of eggs if there’s an issue with his count.
This is as far into the future as I want to think about this right now…accepting that I’m not able to ovulate on my own has me feeling so unfeminine and utterly crappy about myself. I don’t know if I CAN accept this about myself, but I also know that it sucks to be this obsessed with ovulation. I’m hoping that with a plan in place, I’ll chill the f out for the rest of the year. 2012 feels like it will be an interesting year…