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Taking my Vagino to the Gyno

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I’ve lost track of how long it’s been since I’ve had my period, but I’m estimating I’m on CD80ish right now. Too long. SCFFF is on a bender, and I’ve got to reel her in. Time to come home, hussie! Mama misses you in a really sick, sad way that has me blubbering to Hubs about “just wanting my period alreadyyyyyyy.” It’s not a happy place.

Hubs and I came up with a plan yesterday on what exactly we’re going to do moving forward since it’s pretty clear I’m not ovulating.

Step 1: Get my vagino to my gyno. I will get Provera and command SCFFF return home immediately to my tampon.I’m sick of asking her nicely.

Step 2: Test my hormones/bloodwork on CD3

Step 3: Once armed with that knowledge, I will take these results to the Chinese Herbalist/accupuncturist in January of 2012. I want to give the natural remedy a shot for 2-3 months before moving onto…

Step 4: Clomid. Maybe Clomid and Metformin? I don’t know…I’m very nervous for this step in the plan because it feels like the great unknown. Hubs will also get his boys checked before I go on Clomid. Don’t want to force my body to pop out a ton of eggs if there’s an issue with his count.

This is as far into the future as I want to think about this right now…accepting that I’m not able to ovulate on my own has me feeling so unfeminine and utterly crappy about myself. I don’t know if I CAN accept this about myself, but I alsoΒ  know that it sucks to be this obsessed with ovulation. I’m hoping that with a plan in place, I’ll chill the f out for the rest of the year. 2012 feels like it will be an interesting year…




About Sunny

I'm a happily married, 31 year old gal who is just starting her journey to conceive. I also have ovaries that may need a jump start. This blog is an attempt to channel my obsessive research on my Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome into something a pregnancy test. That would be awesome. I also hope that other women with this condition will find support in this blog. There are a lot of us out here! Happy reading, whatever your journey may be.

8 responses »

  1. Don’t worry about Clomid. You’ll have 1 of 3 outcomes: either it will do nothing, it will do something but might cause some temporary cysts, or you’ll respond beautifully with no cysts. In any case, it can cause some nasty mood swings, so be prepared.

    With Metformin, hopefully they will start you on a low dose and inch upwards. Always take it with food too, to try and avoid some stomach upset. I did fine on it, but it can cause stomach issues with a lot of women.

    Call me with any more questions! πŸ™‚

  2. I’ve used Clomid for 5 cycles. Responded beautifully the first cycle and got pregnant (ectopic). And responded beautifully this month, too, so I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

    I wanted to reply specifically to the feeling you’re not a woman because you’re not ovulating on your own. I know you probably know this but that is NOT the test for whether you’re a woman. Just because your body is failing you in this way doesn’t take away your femininity. It’s no different than any medical issue – cancer, pneumonia – it’s something your body isn’t getting right. I can’t get the right words out, but I wanted to take a moment to reassure you that you are EVERY BIT AS MUCH A WOMAN AS ANYONE WHO OVULATES.

    That said, I have had similar thoughts – I can’t get pregnant on my own so I must not be a full woman. It’s a tough mental block to get over.

    • Thank you so much for these words, sometimes. It is an extremely tough mental block to get over, but hearing these words of wisdom from you seriously helps. We’ll keep fighting the good fight, and be womanly no matter WHAT πŸ™‚ I’m sending you lots of positive vibes on your latest Clomid cycle!

  3. At least your clomid hot flashes will be in the winter. Which I guess could be worse because you’ll throw your covers off, get really cold and keep repeating that cycle. If the clomid doesn’t work there’s always femara, which I think is way better.

    Are you insulin resistant? If not you may want to ask your RE about the benefits of metformin. I was on it for a couple months but then I went to an RE who told me since I didn’t have insulin resistance according to my glucose test I could stop it since some big study (don’t ask for details, I can’t remember) concluded that metformin does not definitely decrease the risk of miscarriage. Whatever. I’m sure you’ll hear a million different things. Something is bound to work! πŸ™‚

    • Haha–yeah, in LA it’s never really “winter”, so I’ll probably just be uncomfortably hot, sweaty and stinky for the Clomid cycle πŸ™‚ According to my glucose tolerance test, I am mildly insulin resistant. My one hour glucose test came in at 146, and 140 is the cutoff of “normal”, but I am also pretty thin (5’6″/120), so even a 140 on me would be high for my body mass. From what I understand, Metformin helps lower the amount of circulating testosterone in the body, thus helping ovulation resume. Argh. It’s all so brain numbing. We’ll see!

  4. Hi there, just found your blog and thought I’d say hi. I have a similar TTC issue to you only mine story is about a year longer. I am thin with PCOS and was convinced that I could fix my body with acupuncture and naturopathy. A year later when the natural route didn’t work I finally broke down and tried Clomid. Poof! Pregnant. But then sadly miscarried 12 weeks in. I STILL take herbs and see an acupuncturist but i have no idea if any of it’s helping and will be back to the western meds in Jan because doc wanted 2 cycles post miscarriage before another round of Clomid. In the meantime I think I may have ovulated on my own, is it the acupuncture or the herbs or the pregnancy?! Who knows! FUCKING PCOS! Curious to see where your journey takes you and if you stick to the natural plan or go for the big guns =) Oh, and my longest cycle with no AF is 105 days, 80 is nothing πŸ˜‰

    • Hey Jesica! It’s so great to hear you found this blog. Fucking PCOS is right…Makes me want to bash my head into a wall most days. I’m so sorry to hear about your miscarriage, but it seems like your body responds nicely to the meds, so I’m interested to hear about your January cycle. Sending you good thoughts and ovulating vibes πŸ™‚


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