Two of my favorite solo artists did a duet together a little while back, and today it came up randomly on my iPod and brought tears to my eyes. I’m feeling like a big emotional mess lately…praying it’s a sign my hormones are fighting to make a presence in my body again, but I’m also becoming more and more aware that depression is an issue for me, and has been my entire life. In typical depressed fashion, I fluctuate between apathy, lethargy, and bursting into tears at any given moment.
Anyhow–this song has melancholy all over it. I’ve never heard it as a song about infertility–until today–which gives you an idea into my state of mind.
I had a very vivid dream last night that I was holding a little newborn boy. I think the way the dream went, he was my mom’s child, but I was going to raise him. His head was so unstable I kept worrying that I would hold him wrong and hurt him. I remember feeling so much love for this little guy, and so eager to be a mom.