I just got lab results back from having my thyroid checked. They did a bunch of bloodwork….everything is normal with my T3 and T4 levels, as well as my TSH. Testosterone is fine. Blood glucose is great. The only thing messed up (again) is my FSH/LH ratio which is 8.2/13.
Honestly, this ratio didn’t bother me as much as the FSH 8.2. I was at “7.5” last month, and “5” last year…so the trend I’m noticing is that my FSH level is rapidly creeping up on the number 10…from what I understand, “10” is the threshold for egg quality control…
At 8.2, I’m not even in the “good” egg reserve category anymore. I’m headed towards “fair”. My thyroid doc told me that this was all “normal”, and he said that because I hadn’t gotten my period in so long it’s impossible to know at what time of the month I’m testing. FSH can fluctuate greatly over the month, but frankly, I am about 99% certain I’m NOT ovulating right now, which would make me in the follicular stage, which would mean that my FSH levels should be LOW. Why the hell I jumped from a “5” last year, to “8” this year scares me. Where will I be next year? Do eggs really loose quality that quickly?
Am I being completely irrational?I’m not sure I even understand FSH at all…I know that the higher the number, the harder your body is working to stimulate egg production. But after ovulation, the number can be in the 20s…where the hell I am in the cycle is beyond me. Everything is a mess with my body.
I feel really lost right now. I’m terrified that my body is on the decline, and that I won’t be making good eggs…I’m sure I’m being a bit paranoid, but I can’t help but think my window on conceiving is closing much quicker than I thought. Actually taking the steps to start Clomid has been making me very nervous. I’m jumping into the big kids pool now…I’m admitting that I “have a problem”. Now I keep thinking that not only may I have a problem ovulating, I may have a problem with ovarian reserve. I’m only 31…I feel like I should still have many many years left to try.
I feel very sad today…I just wish someone could promise me that everything will be okay and that one day, I will hold my baby in my arms.
I’m sure I’m being a bit irrational. I just feel like no doctor has been able to give me a straight answer on what the fuck is wrong with my body. If all of my bloodwork is “normal”, then why am I unable to ovulate???