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Pardon my MIA-ness, I am currently in Boston visiting Hubs’ family, participating in a wedding, and spending some much needed relaxation time up in Cape Cod and (in a few days) New Hampshire. I’m at the Cape right now in an adorable Bed and Breakfast. The weather could not be more perfect.  Hubs and I shared some great laughs last night, and got to look at the stars at the beach on a perfectly balmy, sea salty air kind of night.

Here’s the update on my nether regions, done in fancy bullet point style because the Cape awaits!

 My period. In a normal world, it would have shown up tomorrow (since I finished my pill pack on Saturday).  I would have a lovely, clear cut, bloody bleed with no question on menstrual flow color or viscosity or what chart day it was. However, because my body would like to continue the tradition of fucking with me, I began spotting thick brown discharge for 5 days up until yesterday when I finally had a heavy-ish flow to the point where I needed a tampon. So I’m counting yesterday as CD1-ish. Which means I start CD3-ish of Clomid…tomorrow.

 My rash: Because it’s been 90 degrees here in Boston (plus humidity) and I’ve been forced to wear pads for the last few days because my flow was annoying enough to warrant them, but not heavy enough for a tampon, I got a really bad rash “down there” (this happens if I wear pads or any type of non-breathable material. Note to self: searing rash on vaginal area does not equal wanting to get busy with Husband. I’m doing everything I can to air out the area and keep it dry, but it’s slow healing. I was laying on our bed last night in a night gown with my legs up near the window AC.

Hubs: Are you airing out your vag?

Me: Why yes, yes I am.

Hubs scrunches nose and makes an “ew” face..

End scene.

 Other body related nonsense: As I was rushing around to pack for the Cape yesterday I ran across the guest room to get something and the cap of my knee connected in a very direct way with a sharp metal corner of the guest bed. The pain I experienced was nausea inducing. After screaming in shock/legit pain, I collapsed on the floor in a puddle of tears, sweat, vaginal rash and old brown menstrual blood. Yes, folks, I lost my shit. I’m doing a bit better now, but the knee cap is still incredibly tender to the touch and I’m walking down stairs like an 80 year old.

The pain of my knee was legitimately awful, but I think part of my mental break was just being entirely fed up with my body. Aches, pains, menstrual blood monitoring, rashes…I just want 6 months where I don’t think about any of this…and I realize that is highly unlikely to happen. Clomid is going to be a brand new ride for me and my body. We’re putting a lot of hopes into this…I just don’t want it all to feel like the hidden metal edge of a guest bed.

Although I will be vacationing, I will give a play by play of Life With Clomid this week.


About Sunny

I'm a happily married, 31 year old gal who is just starting her journey to conceive. I also have ovaries that may need a jump start. This blog is an attempt to channel my obsessive research on my Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome into something a pregnancy test. That would be awesome. I also hope that other women with this condition will find support in this blog. There are a lot of us out here! Happy reading, whatever your journey may be.

19 responses »

  1. Boo to a crappy period, and for beating the crap out of your knee!! But hey, enjoy the cape 🙂 my favorite place! Eat lots of good seafood and make sure to go to Sundae School for some bangin ice cream!

  2. HA -hilarious! Men just don’t understand! Doesn’t he realize you were doing that for him too? Okay mostly you, but you can spin it 🙂 haha Good luck on clomid this cycle!! sidenote – LOVE the cape. Haven’t been in a few years, but dying to go back! ENJOY!

  3. I just burst out laughing at your scene of airing out the vag and the ensuing conversation. Hilarious. But only in that I completely feel your pain about being fed up and frustrated with your body. I’m glad you can keep a sense of humor about yourself – and keep us laughing with you, too!

  4. I have totally been there with the uncomfortable lady parts. Pads are the devil-but i hate tampons too so I really can’t win. and my PCOS Is of the variety where I have a period every 17 days (a full on period, it sucks) with of course no ovulation. Yay. Me. Also, sorry about your knee. I often do that dissolving into tears when in pain thing and it’s no fun.

    On a side note, I was going to tell you that 50 mg of Clomid worked for me in that I did ovulate on CD 19. And I felt it coming too. It hurt for a few days up to it and I thought maybe I had a cyst or something-but nope. Significant temperature change on CD 20 that has done nothing but gone up and stay steady. I’m now 5 DPO and trying not to feel too confident because me and the hubs had sex (I refuse to say baby dance-it’s creepy) three days up to ovulation, on ovulation day AND on the day after just for good measure (mainly because my OPK was still positive even though I felt certain that I had already ovulated). This makes me think I have never once ovulated naturally in my life because I don’t ever remember the pain that I felt this cycle. It wasn’t severe-just out of the ordinary for me. Also, my breasts hurt like a bitch.

    So anyway, I hope you have good luck too. Stay strong! Feel confident! I’m relieved that the 50 mg worked because my doc said that my uterine lining was in good shape on the ultrasound, so now hopefully he won’t bump me up to 100 mg if i don’t get pregnant this cycle. I don’t want to take too much and make my uterus cranky.

    • I haven’t taken clomid yet, but I talk about “that December” (Dec 2011) when I ovulated for sure, and I have memories like you just described. You wrote : “This makes me think I have never once ovulated naturally in my life because I don’t ever remember the pain that I felt this cycle.” and it’s like wow you stole the words right from my mouth! I hope this is the only month you have to be on clomid! Good luck to you!

      • Thank you! It feels great to look at my temp chart and think-wow I CAN do it. Then i feel slightly deflated to see the “C” underneath days 5-9 reminding me that I needed help. But I’m still grateful 🙂

    • That is such great news about the O on Clomid!! I have high hopes that this will work for me and you.

  5. One piece of unsolicited advice – a menstrual cup can be used even with the tiniest flow! Since I started using the cup on the first day of my period I didn’t get those rashes/itchiness (I know exactly what you’re talking about because I get them if I have to wear a pad at night for a few nights in a row). It takes some getting used to but it is soooooooo worth it, at least for me, if nothing else than you don’t get so itchy on the light days!

  6. Lady, you crack me up. Humor through pain. It’s a gift. Hurrah for a new cycle and a new drug? Suddenly the Huey Lewis and the News Song “I want a new drug” just game to my mind.
    I hope you have a relaxing time, despite the period and the rash.

  7. I NEVER wear pads but after giving birth you can’t exactly wear a tampon and thus I’ve been wearing pads for like a week and a half. After a week I started to get the itchy, irritatedness and my midwife suggested Natracare pads, makes a world of difference! Their organic cotton, so basically just like having your panties against your skin.

    Hoping all goes well with the Clomid!!!

  8. You never fail to make me laugh lady! Might I suggest some baby powder in addition to airing out your vag? Pads do the same thing to me. Or I just put in a tampon and go underwear-less. Endless options for clearing up a vag rash. Enjoy the Clomid 😉

  9. Hilarious! I can relate- I’m on CD 2 and had to call the fertility specialist to schedule my saline ultrasound, and she made me describe my menstrual blood to her to determine if it was spotting or flow. The indignity. This period is so weird that I don’t really know what it is myself.

    Yay for you starting Clomid soon!

  10. Have you thought about trying menstrual cloth? I know it sounds uber hippie, but I’m not at all surprised pads bother you after knowing about all the crap in them ( google dioxin). Check etsy or cloth diaper sites/stores for info on menstrual cloth options.

  11. That totally sounds like a conversation my husband and I would have!


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