These entries might start to get a little garbled as I’m not really sure what to make of everything right now. I’m typing this from my hotel room where I had to flee for yet another episode of stomach cramps/diarrhea. I have exactly 45 minutes to rest up before my next meeting, and I’m hoping to sleep. Sweet, sweet sleep. I feel out of it, but it may just be my 12 hour days for 5 days straight schedule I’ve been keeping.
Temperature this morning was 97.8–a lot lower than my previous week’s high temps, but still above my coverline. This has me feeling like the good ole 1, 2, punch from AF is imminent… I mean, my temp is dropping. Right? And yet…still no period. I am bloated, cramping, and this morning I got my first truly weird possible symptom: nausea. It came in a very quick wave during my last meeting, accompanied by slight dizziness. All in all it lasted about 10 seconds, but it was very noticeable. I’ve never had this as a PMS symptom before, but who knows. Seriously. Who knows.
I’m going to speak to Hubs tonight about doing a pee test while I’m still here…I’m just scared as hell, ladies. I don’t know why I’m scared, I just don’t want the let down. I would honestly rather AF rear her bitchy head at me then look at a stark pregnancy test and then wait for her to show up. Or, I’d love it if she just never showed up, and I took a pregnancy test at home a few days from now. But I’m still not completely out of the woods yet. It’s only 13dpo.
Thank you so much for all of the positive, encouraging words everyone. It really means a lot to me to hear them and to feel like I have a cheering section, even though I feel impossibly far away from everything right now.