Something has happened over the last couple of weeks that has me slightly nervous…not ungrateful…just…well….let’s just say I’m looking at my naked body in the mirror a lot lately and squinting and saying: “Hmmmm. This definitely looks….different”. Admittedly, I had a few moments of guilty hyperventilation as I squeezed my newly formed back and ass fat. I know I’m supposed to be grateful for it all…so it’s hard when the negative thoughts about my body come up. My underwear has stopped fitting. Who cares. I’ll buy bigger underwear, right? But…well…it’s just taking some getting used to. In 4 weeks, I have probably gained 5 or 6 pounds. I believe I’m up a total of 14 pounds since Day 1. There are large padded areas on my butt and thighs that didn’t used to be there. I’m doing my best to embrace the inevitable weight gain, but it’s odd to see it coming on and not be able to do anything about it. It’s been quite a mental shift for me, as I’m used to being athletic and being strict about my calorie intake if I want to loose weight. I had to look in the mirror this morning and shrug and just say…fuck it. Bagel is growing strong, and my body is nourishing her right now. If nature wants my ass to grow in order for Bagel to grow…so be it. I am still continuing to eat my nightly bowl of ice cream.
Ice cream? Or a sweet Bagel girl? Maybe a little bit of both…
Over the last couple of weeks I’ve been allowing myself to get really really excited about this pregnancy. Hubs has been working with a closet guy to get the closest in the nursery re-done (the “nursery” was formerly a cluttered storage type room that always seemed to remain in limbo as we went through the TTC process. The closet in there was absolute shit.). I’m finally putting my registry together, and I’ve been making decisions on nursery decorating, which is big for me, considering my design prowess usually falls somewhere between Target sale and maybe Macy’s home store. Aside from just simply not being that artistic from a design sense, I have a really big problem when it comes to decision making– especially when there are seemingly infinite possibilities. An empty room can be as scary as a blank page when you’re trying to fill it with something meaningful. The internet is both a blessing and a curse in this regard. There are INFINITE baby sites on the interwebs, which means I have gone into design overload. I’m also a stickler for good deals, so I have spent HOURS scouring Craig’s List, glider deals, baby bedding sites, and my most current time suck, Etsy.
After hours (and I mean…hours….) of research on where to find bedding at the best price, I found Baby Bedding Zone. They have a huge variety of bedding sets, and their prices were the best (better than Amazon or Overstock in most cases). Overstock has also had some good choices for bedding. My mom is being extremely generous and buy us our crib, mattress, and changing table. I’m getting mine from a site called Cymax. Out of every place I scoured for cribs, this one had the best deals. For about $600 I’m getting a crib, bed converters, a changing table, and a mattress. I probably won’t use the mattress, as I’m going phthalate free and getting this one, but it’s still an awesome deal compared to some of the sites I’ve seen. They have a wide variety of cribs at different prices as well.
Because I would consider myself highly mediocre in the decorating department, I am usually content with basic furniture and minimal design in my house, but for some reason, I have felt the urge to go all out on making the baby room special. I want to make it unique with original art, an interesting bedding set, and a freaking fabulous glider. I have found two bedding sets that I love and have ordered both (I will send one back) They are quite different color schemes, so I have had a lot to think about in terms of wall decorations and such. The search for original art to hang in the room has led me to Etsy. Please do yourself a favor and do not go on Etsy unless you have about 2-3 hours at a time to loose yourself in it. This website is magical!!! I have found so many original pieces and gorgeous wall decals on there. Once I decide on the bedding, I will order some original prints that tie in to the theme (many of the original prints on Etsy range from $40-$60).
Lastly, I finally decided on a glider. There are about 5,678 to choose from, and I have researched about 5,457 of them. Ultimately, I’ve gone with a Dutailier, which is on the more expensive end of things, but from what I hear, they’re worth it. I probably could have gone with a cheaper glider, but I really wanted to make comfort a priority, and some of the other ones seemed hit or miss based on the reviews. What I also didn’t know about gliders is that there are about 156 different types of gliders per brand…so with that in mind, I picked THIS ONE off a site called Hayneedle.com. Hayneedle is hit or miss with prices, but I have not found a better deal on this glider anywhere else.
My goal is to give Bagel a cozy, colorful little nest when she gets here. I will post pics as I start putting everything together!