12 DPO, Go go go

It’s 12 DPO today, and I’m still going…temp is back up to 98.45 today–granted, I didn’t take my morning BBT, but I still felt good seeing those high numbers this evening, as I never get above 97.6 pre ovulation, even during the day. I didn’t temp this morning out of fear, but I feel like the higher numbers during the day are still a good indicator that I’m making some progesterone.

Ok. So. I have been loathe to mention too many symptoms seeing that I take disappointment REALLY badly, and don’t want to set myself up for a major fall, but this morning, I woke up to slight crampy feelings (Again). I thought for sure my period would start as soon as I used the bathroom. As I stood up from bed, I felt this rush of liquid coming out of me (yes, TMI, TMI, blah blah blah) and instinctively said “fuck, here it is.” and cupped my hand under my vajayjay. When I removed my hand expecting to find a pool of blood (again, I love this TMI), all there was was a clear watery fluid, as if I was ovulating. WTF???

Late this afternoon, I had these ridiculous uterine cramps, as if my period was gearing up to start any minute. I NEVER get cramps this badly unless my period is about to start. I also had what felt like ovulation pains on the same side that I ovulated this month…just for a minute or two on my right side. Later on, I had to bail on a meeting so I could run upstairs to my hotel room and have explosive diarrhea in the privacy of my own bathroom. This sort of cramping/mud butt is ALWAYS followed by a bleed when I go to the bathroom, and yet, when I wiped…nada.

This susupense is killing me, yo!

Tomorrow is the kicker. If I do not get a period tomorrow morning, I’m going to seriously start to wonder.